My tea's gone cold,
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

Life is sweet when you want it to be... Too many times i let my problems cloud my mind and i end up thinking too much and wallowing in self-pity.. while granted i aint going the most awesome patch in my life there is so many things to be thankful about.. Life itself is the greatest thing we have and yet more than anyone i dnt treasure it...

Dreams, i have had so many plastered here and many more in my vast imaginations but yet i wonder how many i have achieved and worst how many have i tried working towards... Its not about the size of your dream but the size of your efforts. So now i am trying my best to live my dreams, trying to live for today no regrets tml... who knows what is happening tml, today might be my last day on earth and i dnt want to spend it worrying about tml..

Surprisingly i like my life busy and filled with various things to do, i i used to live a mundane life of home work home with a occasional outing here and there, but nowadays i am so pressed for time i end up sleeping so little but yet i like it.. i feel complete.. weird i know but isnt that always the case with me.. The weirdo..

Alot of old friends will suddenly notice the reappearance of me in their lives.. alot of ppl would have remember my old policy of not msging/calling till the other person does and unfortunately thanks to that stupidity i have let alot of people slip from my life....i am trying my best to make amends and to an extent make peace with myself for my foolishness but it aint easy for the people in my past to so forgetful and just accept old "frens" in their life.. As i said about dreams i dnt wanna live regretting and i'm trying as slowly as i can to be the old me...

Many times i keep saying i wanna be new i wanna something else, i just never realised the best you can be is to be yourself, while i am not going to stop better myself i have just realised that the person i wanna be can also be me just upgraded for a lack of better usage of grammar... I wanna be all i can be as me, i dnt want to keep reinventing myself and in the process forgetting who i really am..

This post i guess in the end serves only a purpose of telling me of how i am on 21 May 09... nuffin else but its realli nice to see how u felt a few years ago.. and i guess people who ponder like me probably would find this post meaningful..

God Bless,
MeL